Thursday, November 7, 2013

{random thursday} I can't resist buying...


Welcome to my first Random Thursday in who knows how long...it's hosted by Em, Sarah, and Lin {LOVE Lin - she is an amazing person}. Anyway, this week's topic rocks...I have a LOT of things I can't resist buying...but I had to narrow it down...




the first one shouldn't be a shock to ANYONE who knows me...SHARPIES!!!



um, this is also a gimme...Anything Michael Kors...shoes, clothes, bags, etc.



um, is there ANY question what's next? Of course it's books :)


seriously, my favorite obsession, though it is NOT IN TEXAS {boo}, is Tim Hortons


ok what girl can can pass on these? Of course I mean super cute jewelry...






so these are the top things I can't resist getting myself...what are yours?

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

finding myself...

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You know that moment where you get so involved in someone else's life that you forget all about yours and stop being you? No? Me either....

Yeah...so my life has not been mine for a while now...first I became absorbed into this girl's world who had become my best friend online...then in real life...then the life she told me was hers wasn't hers. Yeah.

Then I started dating this  guy and became absorbed into his world...I lost even more of me.

So now I sit here as a shell of a person I was trying to find me again...trying to fix all the things I worked on after the separation {hell for the last 5+ years} and trying to be confident in the woman I am.

Why am I continually repeating this pattern? I know I like to learn things the hard way, but this is ridiculous. I am going to take a step back from the life I created and work on me again. Write again. Read again. Focus on my photography again. Focus on ME.

This is a hard position to be in...I've been assured by friends that it won't take me AS long as it did to get back to where I was...I really, really hope that they are right. I can't handle being a shell of a person. I deserve more. I deserve to be me...

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On a side note, I am thinking about reworking my blogs and consolidating my regular blog with my book blog and my photography blog...

Monday, June 3, 2013

my brother, the graduate...






you have NO idea how insanely proud I am of my brother for finishing high school...this year had been a rocky one, full of a lot of family drama, insanity and him even wanting to quit. Seeing the pride and sense of accomplishment on his face made my year. I love him and was so blessed that he included me, with his father, as one of his "parents" that got to sit on the field...

graduating class of 34
pretty much the whole town showing up to support!
my brother & I
my mom & I

my uncle, his wife & grandchild, my brother & my mom


my super-awesome sister
 

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

10 on Tuesday...


  1. This last week has been full of taking care of little one recovering from back surgery...
  2. I also made a pretty amazing announcement last night on twitter...if you don't follow me, you probably should, because the announcement is awesomesauce. {at some point I will probably come clean here, but for now, the other it is ;)}
  3. I am so freaking sad Smash ended...but I think the finale was amazingly done...I wish more people had loved the show.
  4. Sunday I got to get out of the house for a bit and went to paint pottery...it was so much fun, then had a BLAST playing 90s Trivial Pursuit for HOURS :)

  5. I met with a prospective bride and groom last Friday so of course I had to get my business cards done! {photography website}

  6. Summer is definitely here...which means {hopefully soon after Liepshin recovers more} tons of time at the pool...

  7. My brother is graduating on FRIDAY...I can't believe it. It's been a hella long road for him to get there and I'm honored I get to be one of his "parents" who walk him on the field...
  8. I have been contemplating my next tattoo...I really, really want to cover up the one I have with a butterfly that is more "me"...plus I want to start a larger piece that will sorta be like what is below, but that dream is a little on hold since all extra money is heading to pay for surgery for little one...


  9. I'm working on not being so obsessed with my phone...especially when around friends or even when I'm at home.... {this!}

  10. I can't stop smiling... {see #2} hehe

ps - yes I realize how sporadic I am with posting...nothing for a long time then 2 times in a day...it's just how I roll ;)

dachshund back surgery {take 2}...

yes...this definitely DID not help with her back problems!

After going through back surgery and the recovery process with Zuker {RIP sweet girl}, I honestly hoped and prayed I would NEVER have to deal with that again...I though since my Liepshin was shorter with longer legs I would luck out...but yeah, not so much.

Last Monday night when I got home, everything seemed normal, but after a little while, I realized she hadn't come to find me when I was sitting on the couch in the living room {typically she will NOT leave my side}...I went to investigate and you could tell she was in a little pain. I picked her up and set her down and made her walk...well, the results were NOT what I wanted to see. She was having a hard time moving her legs and sorta dragging them. She also would only take a few steps, sit down and stare at me like 'why did you move me?". I knew IMMEDIATELY what was happening and started freaking out.

With Zuker I never got to see her in this stage...I honestly don't know if she ever was in it, but seeing little one like this broke my heart. I immediately snagged her and kept her as still as possible till I could get in that morning with my vet {so they could recommend me to the surgeon}. My doctor is amazing with dachshunds and knows what to look for and almost immediately was like, you need to go to the surgery center. I decided to go back to the one I used for Zuker {since her results were spectacular}.

I had to wait a few hours before my appointment so I just cuddle with little one and stressed...I knew that besides the cost, I was in for a LONG recovery road ahead.

I met with the surgeon {there are two in the practice...one meets with patients while the other is operating. What was amazing was the doctor remembered me from when I brought zuker there FOUR years ago. He was the one who had done the surgery on Zuker and that I met with on the follow up and the surgeon that operated on Liepshin was the one who I had the initial consult with last time. It was a relief to know the same doctors were still there.

He explained a lot about the rating scale of what the do with dachshunds with back problems...with a leg deficit of 1-2 {on a scale of 4} they usually recommend a drug therapy and confinement for a few weeks and typically they recover on their own...with 2.5-4 it's recommended to have immediate surgery. Liesphin {of course} was a 2.25. It was a crapshoot on if she would recover on her own or if she needed surgery. He told me sometimes they get better and sometimes in a matter of days they jump to a 4 {which is what Zuker was - all feeling/mobility in her lower legs were lost}...you just never know.

The ONLY decision I could live with was to have the surgery. I could NOT chance her losing all mobility {the recovery rate jumps from 85-95% down to only a 50/50 chance when they hit a 4. Plus, boy am I glad I did since they found not one, but two, ruptured disks {one had been an older injury}...so they were able to fix both of them without any problems...

She had surgery last Tuesday and the next morning she was eating/drinking. I got to bring her home Thursday and have spent almost every waking moment by her side since then. She is definitely NOT liking having to stay still {which is hilarious since typically all she does is SLEEP ALL DAY LONG}. She's been a trooper, I'm still a little stressed/worried, but I see her making strides in her recover EVERY day so that  helps a lot.

I go back in a little over a week to get her stitches out and to check on her recovery. Then I can lighten up some on the strict confinement and though she should walk much, she can start walking some after that. That will last for another FOUR weeks...

My biggest challenge when all of this is done is keeping her from jumping up on her chair and/or the couch...my springy doxie going to have to stop being so bouncy when this is all said and done. I'm thankful right now that she survived the surgery and she is on the road to recovery...I know a lot of them don't and I am not sure how I could have stayed in my house with it being completely empty and both my dachshunds being gone. I am just eternally grateful that I don't have to worry about that right now...

Thursday, May 16, 2013

{random thursday} my dream home...



Welcome to another Random Thursday...it's hosted by Em, Sarah, and Lin {LOVE Lin - she is an amazing person}. Anyway, so glad it's almost the weekend...definitively looking forward to the weekend. This week's topic is...




It's fascinating to me...especially since I'm trying to make my current home {notice I said home not house - I know I'm shocked by that too} into my dream home...I will post some plans/pictures of it soon...but for now...here are some insanely extravagant and sometimes simple ideas I want for my real dream home if money was no object...also, I may have gotten carried away...


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kitchen...
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living room...
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bedrooms...
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bathrooms...
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closet...
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library...
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mudroom...
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outdoors...
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