decisions...

so here's the deal...I like my house. I like it. not love it. honestly I never have...why would we buy a house we didn't love?...well timing. We had found a house that needed a lot of fixing up though we loved the layout...put in an offer, it was accepted, inspection was HORRIBLE, seller wouldn't give any concessions, we walked away. Problem was we had given notice at our apartments which gave us less than a month to find a house and CLOSE on it...yep.

We went on a house hunting expedition...the house we bought has a lot of room but nothing about it stands out. I gave up a lot of "want" items so we could have a place to live. We did and still do "like" this house but honestly we have never "loved" it. We have been SLOWLY, and I do mean slowly, trying to update, paint, fix-up, repair, make this house a home.  I think that it is telling that it took me 6 years of living here before I hung stuff up on the walls {and honestly it's still not EVERY room}.

Honestly I am embarrassed for people to come over here...I go to their houses and it feels like a HOME...my house just is a place that has a bunch of furniture in it. I am hoping that once we finish fixing a few things {like a couple bathrooms}, paint and finish getting new flooring, that I will finally love being here.

We have been planning on raising a family here. We have a lot of space {considering it's a 4 bedroom/3 bath}, our plan has been to stay here. Especially since me possibly staying home {or at least working part-time from home and part-time at the office} seems to be the way I am heading once we have a family, our mortgage is very affordable and do-able on one income {especially once gene becomes a ups driver full-time}.

HOWEVER, this does NOT keep us from thinking about getting a new house.  Gene found some homes that I honestly fell in love with {well the home plans anyway}. They are amazing layouts {almost everything on the 1st floor with bonus rooms on the 2nd}...amazing styles {brick and stone facades}...great location {we would be closer to so many more of my friends in the Cypress area}...but that would mean we would need 2 incomes. I am hoping that between now and when we would decide to move/buy again I can build up my freelance graphic design business so I can contribute the income needed without having to go into work. I hope.

I know this post is a lot of me talking it out...but I kinda needed to do that. I want a new house. I want to be able to spend lots of time with my family. I want to figure out a perfect balance so we can have what we need and a little of what we want...But first I guess we need to HAVE a family...