for some weird reason on 11DPO I'm freaking out. Seriously freaking. I know that's not good or justified for any reason but I am. I think it started with the super weird dream I had last night. I dreamed I was 18 weeks pregnant and just figured it out. Then the baby moved. It was a super-real feeling dream. I woke up scared. I was scared because I'm beyond afraid that I'll never know what that feels like. I know its silly but I am crying thinking about it {and yes, I'm crying at my desk at work - I know I have some serious issues}. AND I tested this morning. I know it's WAY too soon but I did. So that BFN made the dream seem that much further away. I am insane right now people. Then my temp dipped this morning some from the crazy high number I had yesterday so of course I am now thinking the worst. Work is insane so that at least helps me keep my mind off of this SOME...but its still there.
ps. I promise my blog isn't going to turn into just insane ramblings by me. I promise that I will return to fun posts soon.
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Oh, maybe this is a good thing... a crazy early preggo dream? I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you lady!!!
Crazy dreams and wild emotions are two symptoms of . . . Okay, I won't say it, but you know where I'm going with this. Fingers crossed!
Dreams can really get to us, huh? I too have had some strange dreams, I also had a dream once that I was pregnant and could feel the baby kicking and everything. But...there was no way I could be pregnant, lol. Hope you are feeling better!
I hope that dream was of things to come very soon!! xoxo Rooting for you!
Sounds like you are just hormonal to me...relax...I agree with Katie.
It may give you some comfort to read this excerpt from Psalm 139verse 14-16.
"You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit them together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! It is amazing to think about. Your workmanship is marvelous—and how well I know it. You were there while I was being formed in utter seclusion! You saw me before I was born and scheduled each day of my life before I began to breathe. Every day was recorded in your book!
Will be saying my prayers for you.
I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you!!! The end of the 2ww is the absolute worst!!
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