Monday, December 6, 2010

holiday blues...



Normally I'm loving this time of year...I love Christmas...I love family...I love presents...I love winter...For some reason this year I'm hating everything. I do mean everything.

I have 90% of my Christmas gifts purchased and about 15% of them wrapped. My house is in complete disarray. I have zero decorations up. I don't feel the Christmas cheer. Normally I fill my house with decorations the week before Thanksgiving...every night I get to come home and stare at my tree and watch tons of Christmas movies. This  year, none of that. I feel like I'm confined to my bedroom since the entire downstairs is destroyed. Our bedroom is full of presents and boxes and junk because we have moved a ton of stuff from downstairs upstairs. Oh, and no tv is plugged to a dvd player so there is no movies being played...

My house sucks. My mood sucks. I have no Christmas cheer. I hope I can get out of this soon. I am not a nice/happy person right now.

ps - for those of you who know is being a bitch a side effect of Clomid? Seriously I'm not nice right now.

18 comments:

Katie said...

I'm sorry, sweetie. I'm experiencing a bit of holiday blues myself. I hope we can both find our way out of this funk soon. <3

lowfatlady said...

*hugs* Yes clomid can do that to you. I'm sorry your feeling down. I'm thinking of you.

Goodyear Family said...

Yes it is a side affect. I'm sorry you're not in the spirit yet. Good luck and feel better!

Stacy said...

I hear ya honey ~ I am a total B*tch lately too !!!!! You don't have to be suzy sunshine everyday, your allowed to be crappy and bitchy. You and your body are going thru alot right now. Stay strong in your faith and talk to your hubby and you will get through it together xoxoxoxo

unaffected said...

Yes, I think increased bitchiness is definitely a side effect. At least my husband says so...

I hope your holidays get better soon.

Courtney said...

Big ol *hugs* my friend. I for sure have those holiday blues. =*(

annoyed army wife said...

Bummer. Sorry to hear about your lack of Christmas cheer. I'm being a grinch this year, too, and I'm not even on drugs. I hope you can get over it and you find some fabulous sales to get the rest of your gifts!

Jennifer Bruno said...

I feel for you. I hope you find your cheer sometime soon!

SassyIfLady said...

I was a RAGING bitch when I took Clomid. It was horrible. You are so not alone. I hope things get better - treat yourself to something nice...I guess that's how I also gained 8 lbs when I took Clomid...too much treating myself to chocolate! ha...seriously, take care and I'll be thinking of you!

Miracle in the Making said...

I was also a raging bitch on all my cycles of Clomid. I just want to send you big *hugs* my love. xoxo

My Hopeful Journey said...

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Bobbi said...

I was on Clomid last Christmas and it totally ruined my usually happy holiday self. Clomid is the Devil's drug. It really is! Hang in there, though, and know it's all for a good cause. Just keep your eyes on the goal...that baby! In the meantime, it's okay to not be 100% into the holidays. Take each day as it comes. That's all you can do. But congrats on almost having all your Christmas shopping done! That makes one of us. LOL! :)

Cheryl said...

(((hugs))) We all have those days and even weeks where we find ourselves in a funk. It's ok! Besides, you're on clomid. Just the hot flashes alone made be as irritable as a bear! Hang in there!

Kaitlin (ahmymarriedlife) said...

I'm sorry you're not feeling the Christmas cheer. I'm not really either. I've only purchased two gifts. Speaking of which, that's something I need to do right now. I need to find some slippers for my mom. Any recommendations?

I love you! <3

Candice said...

It's definitely partly the lovely medications....they did the same thing to me! Hang in there, it will get better I promise! :)

Missy said...
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Missy said...

I love blogs..really, I do. Especially when I find one that makes me feel well, normal and not so alone.

I was diagnosed with PCOS a few years ago, I've have had two miscarriages and now it's been years since I've been able to get pregnant.

Thank you for being one of the few who are sharing their story. It's such an important one to share. I am sending you a great big hug which is probably odd since we don't know each other but still sending it anyway! :)

OceanDreams said...

Feel better girl, that has got to be tough when your house belongings are everywhere...I don't blame you for fighting to love the holidays!